Life Qualities : An actual reminder for the future me.

"If you’re surrounded with great people, 

then great people you will be. "

That’s the thing that I just realized right now. I realized how it affects me so much.. no matter how smart and passionate you are… no matter how diligent you are, if you’re alone… you’ll be just good. not great. 

Why?

The best people, gave you the best push… they will motivated you whether it’s intentional or not. You won’t believe how fantastic your environment could influence you…. It’s either they would support you through the things you think you can never endure. Complementing you in order for you to be confident in what you do. Or, they will be your role model… the figure that you’re routing for. You will idolize them so hard, that makes you want to be like them… do the best in order to be just as great as them.

I might not know it back then. 

But now I know, And for the sake of my newest discovery… I would try my hardest to be able to fit in. I am no social butterfly. Neither am I an outcast. I don’t alienated myself from people… but I do hang with just several people. Mostly the people I comfortable to be with…. I don’t have bestfriend. As simply as I don’t believe in the word “bestfriend”. I hang with everybody…. But just some of them who I considered my actual friend.

My point is,

If you happened to be a person who’s just seeking for a better change in your life…. Then start with changing the group of people you hang with. I’m not telling you to leave your friends and search for the new one… I believe you’re not that dumb. But, if you want to escalate your transformation.. it will be really helpful if you’re accompanied with the best people. For the sake of you, and your life qualities.

With the best love,

 Dee

Everything's Gonna Be Alright (Apparently)

Hell-o folks!
long time no update....

Lately i've been feeling really wrong. Like everything around me is just so irritating. At first i don't know what's really bothering me... but now i know, it is   JEALOUSY

It ruined my mood a lot. 

How'd i came up with all of this? it's a long story... startin' when i just feel so freaking sad when my friend left me to hang around together (when basically hanging at the mall would just give me nothing but burdened, and i often avoid that kind of activities). Things get complicated, when i just feel so useless and left behind. I started to feel frustated and my mood is just went off. And not forget to mention about my relationship with this "guy". I feel like a jerk, A BIG JERK. i feel like i toy with him. And i know that it is not fair for him, but i still do it anyway.

Who knows? maybe this is somekind of karma? for treating him like that? for showing careless attitude towards my friend? i don't know.....

 
I JUST WANT TO STAY POSITIVE RIGHT NOW.

I know that satan is just giving me some hard time, making me hating my life each day. And you know what? i'm not letting them win.

There are so many other thing that is really important right now. I'm on my last year at highschool, I don't need any unimportant thing to do or feel about. I need to be focus on what i want to do.

My magic word is.....

Everything's gonna be alright. 

and i still believe on it.
 

Wu Yi Fan Complex

it's been bothering me quite awhile right now. u guys must know it already, right?

KRIS VS SM

KRIS DEPARTURE FROM EXO

KRIS LEAVING SM

KRIS'S LAWSUIT AGAINST SM

NO MORE KRIS?

i can't believe a day like this could actually be happening. i never imagine that kris would do such an action. A BIG ONE, actually. i never know that it already pained him so much that he couldn't bear it anymore. all that i could think is when will they comeback? where will they perform next? what's the upcoming event? what news for today? but don't blame me. i just love them that much. i love them not knowing that my love kills them.

all that i could say right now is just i wish all of them for the best. i know for taking such an "ultra-gigantic action" like what kris did must be because he's just done. he's done with all the shit happens to him. humans have limit, and kris eventhough he's our galaxy man, still is a human.

i'm not gonna blame kris for his action. what he did is NOT A BETRAYAL. i believe that what he did is what's the best for him. he is the only person who knows the truth about himself. he is the only one who knows better about his condition. do u really gonna let him overwork his body until he can't take it anymore? do u really have to wait until he pass out, then you would say that leaving sm is the best for him? ( yes i would say leaving "sm" and not EXO, cause no matter what, kris is a part of EXO, even if in real life it is not, but in my heart it would always be like that) 

but honestly i kinda sad for the other members of EXO. they already work so hard. the intense practice was just sick. they're rarely sleep because of the busy schedule. and now "if" kris really is leaving, there must be some sort of changes in their whole performances right? well i do feel bad about that.

 

EXO are one. they will really miss him. especially EXO M. who's gonna be the leader now? just suho? well i dont think he can manage to do all of that alone. then who? lay? luhan? idk.

I OBVIOUSLY 100% won't believe all regarding rumours stating about members blaming kris. it's just a rumour, without a real fact. even some say that it is better to have a scandal member against member than the member against company. but in the end i do believe in my heroes that they wouldn't do such a thing.

 

 

ooh and by the way, do u remember this?        

yep, it was when EXO on sukira, looong time ago. that time sehun cried.

he said " exo... let's be one, let's be last till the end...."

well sehun, now it's my turn to cry T_T

 

SO, FOR MY DEAR LOVELY GALAXY

i'm not gonna judge you...

i'm gonna support you...

i'm not gonna hate you...

i'm gonna cheer for you...

i'm not gonna forget you...

i'm gonna keep remembering you...

I WILL ALWAYS AKNOWLEDGE THAT :

CHICKEN IS NOT YOUR STYLE

YOU WANNA GO TO THE GALAXY

YOU ARE A COOL IMAGE, BUT AN AWKWARD FREAK AT HEART

AND I KNOW THAT YOU ARE ONE. YOU ARE EXO.

 

Always Love, for my one and only KRIS <3

We are ONE! EXO Saranghaja. - KRIS 

Oh Boy.

God.....where could i find one like this?? WHERE???











Boyfriend Material.Boyfriend Material.Boyfriend Material. <3 <3 <3

fairygodmother, please come and find mee :'(

I AM NOT HER. DEFINITELY NOT EVEN ONE PERCENT.

I'M NOT BEAUTIFUL
I'M NOT SMART
I'M CLUMSY
I'M FAT

I DONT SMELL LIKE A $1000 PERFUME
I LOOKED SCARY
I HAVE AN UGLY EYEBROW
I ACT ANNOYING AND COUNTRIFIED





I

AM

JUST

A

BIG

FAT

NOTHING.









happy?

Expectation VS Reality.

When you expect something,
and it comes out....... the exact opposite.


HAHA.

terus lo berharap gw ngomong gimana?

KAPAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNN
BIIIISSSSSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
NYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEETTTTTTTTTTTTIIIIIIIIIIIRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
SSSSSSSSEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNDDDDDDDDDIIIIIIIIIIIRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIII
HHHHHHHHHHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

A Conversation With Myself.

I can’t stand people judging me. ( Don’t hear them… continue moving on )

To ordered me around, like I’m some kind of idiot. ( Take the benefit, leave the rest… )

To feel like an idiot. ( They’re more idiot than you think, cheer up .. )

I want everything be perfectly done before I show it to anybody.

It’s a matter of pride. ( Yes, make it perfect.. )

I can’t be close to a person with a sharp mouth.

I can’t respond it as fast as I want to.

Which is why I’d rather not getting close to them. ( Look straight to their eyes &smile, they’re no better.)

I hate myself for complaining all the time.

Makes me look like a negative bitchy person. ( Stop complaining, observe more… )

I hate myself for being sensitive.

It continuously making me feel like in some sort of sorrowness. ( You’re too busy…  cut it out! )

I'm not gonna be the one who's losing.

i'll be happy. Promise.

With love,

Dee

Mein Problem.

A girl who is clueless about relationship

Curious about how it actually feels

But just cant accept other's feeling for her

Is it a matter of self-unconfidence problem?

Like, how can you be loved by other when you can’t even love yourself…

lots of things

selamat....pagi siang sore malam!

so so so so... just like the title been written, LOTS OF THINGS happened.
dan ngeliat post terakhir gue sebelum ini, gw baru nyadar betapa emosionalnya gw sampe sok2 nulis attention pke bahasa Inggris dengan grammar-nya yang naudzubillah -_-.

WELL,
apparently akhir-akhir ini... gue udah bisa nemuin titik yang tepat. Ngerti gak maksudnya?
titik yang lo tau itu adalah tumpuan yang bisa bikin lo bertahan, nyaman, dan bisa megang erat semua tetap pada daerah stabilnya. *puitisyee...

Yaa... i'm a better person now. i find my peace. thanks to those lot of things that happened.

Danke! ありがとう ! dank u! obrigado! grazie! thankyou! terima kasih! ^_^

smile peeps,

D!

.

I CAN'T HAVE HIM,CAN I?
CAN I?
CAN I?
CAN I?

Heartbreak Chain

There’s  this boy, who’s always looking at a girl, she didn’t notice...

There’s this girl who’s always looking at a guy, he didn’t  notice...

The heartbreak chain starting.

For those whose a lover

Will have to endure the pain

And take the risk

How do you love?

How do you know it is love?

Is it love, or is it just a compassion by any chance?

Who knows…?

-D-

The Way I Am..

5 Tahun penasaran nyari lagu ini..... akhirnya ketemu juga :) 

Yang versinya Didi Benami juga recommended bngt! ☜♡☞  




Smile peeps,
D!

And then i realize.

Selamat....pa ..~ggg *hhhH

Maaf ya, lagi gaksemangat buat ngasih salam riang ke kalian semua nih. Lagi gak sesemangat itu untuk ngasih salam yang bersemangat.. hehe :)

Jadi hari ini gw sadar, kalo semua emang karena gw. Mungkin sebenernya udh nyadar dari lama, tapi gw masih gabisa terima kenyataan kalo yang salah itu gw. Dan sekarang gw mulai ngerti, dan sekarang gw mulai bisa nerima...pelan2 gw terima. JLEB BANGET WOY RASANYA... SEDIH...

Belakangan ini saya mulai sering nyalahin keadaan. Kenapa keadaan gabisa sebahagia dulu laah, kenapa saya gakbisa ngerasaiin seneng2nya yang dulu laah, kenapa sekarang saya gabisa ngerasa bebas tapi tetep senenglaah. Sumpah looh saya bener2 cuma nyalahin keadaan tapi ga ngeliat sayanya sendiri.

Sekarang setelah saya pikirin lagi, setelah saya ngeliat yang sebenernya, sebenernya saya sendiri yang bikin kehidupan sekitar saya jadi gini. "Orang2 itu" kesannya nyebelin, ternyata awalnya karena emang saya yang nyebelin. Semua paranoid itu ternyata bukan emang cuma sekedar paranoid... itu asli. Semuanya emang bener kejadian. 

karena, 

AKSI = REAKSI

Walaupun semua itu salah gw, gw gakbakal malah jadi introvert dan nutup diri gw dari mereka. Gak akan pernah karena suatu kesalahan yang gw perbuat, terus gw jadi ngerasa rendah di hadapan mereka. GAK. Emangnya cuman gw yang pernah buat salah di dunia ini? Mereka bukan dewa, dan semua orang itu punya kedudukan yang sama di dunia. Mau setinggi apapun kesannya power dia di masyarakat, tetep dia itu cuman MANUSIA. Gw ngaku gw salah, gw mau perbaikin keadaan, bukannya takut macem2.. tapi emang karena gw mau berusaha jadi orang yang lebih baik :)

Jadi pada intinya, saya bukan orang yang hobi bikin kesalahan kedua.

Karena sekarang udah ketauan akar inti pokok penyebab permasalahannya, saya rasa saya bisa ngatasin ini semua dan perbaikin semuanya kok.

Ohiya, dan berhubung saya gakmau blog ini isinya cuman curcolan galau doang (karena emang udh perjanjian dari awal kok ^_^)  jadi post2 setelah ini janji deh isinya yang seru2! Sumpah deh gaboong

Jangan bosen2 yaaa guys, post yang ini kasihlah buat galau dikit. Lagi superduper in need of curcoll! 

 

  

Smile peeps,

D!

Crunchy life of mine.

selamat...pagi siang sore malam!

Lalalalala lalalalala lalalalala lala la lalala....

dududum dudu.....

aaaAAAaAAAAaaaaaAArrghHHH

~ #np loving you - minnie riperton

Kira2 semacam itulah gambaran beberapa hari belakangan ini.... 

Berawal dari lalalalala.....kemudian diakhiri dengan AaaAAAAAAAAAaaa *melengkingjanganlupa

Entah kenapa ada aja yang bikin mood jelek seetiaapp haree uwooouwoooo '

Semakin hari jadi semakin tipikal, sama aja. Gakada apaya..? gaada yang nyetrum gimana gitu -__-"

Bagaikan jadi robot rutinitas... saya merasa dikendalikan kesibukan, dan bukannya mengendalikan kesibukan. Seperti mesin. Saya. Mesin.

Semua lagi terasa krenyess kreyess... kraukkkrauuk kresss krsss krrauuuuuum

Bosen ekstra -> Bete berkepanjangan-> Galau akut -> mati (eh apasih astaghfirullah ngaco-__-)

cepet2 ajadeh ilangdeh yaa periode suram ini..kan kan kan "badai pasti berlalu" :) :') :)

Saya percaya kok, dibalik semua hal yang terjadi di dunia ini selalu ada hal positif dan negatifnya.  Seperti saat ini... karena yang (-) sedang berlangsung, tinggal menanti aja datangnya yang (+).

Allah itu adil. Dia lah sang Maha Adil.

Smile peeps,

D!

This..

 

 

 

is just too realistic.