long time no update....
Lately i've been feeling really wrong. Like everything around me is just so irritating. At first i don't know what's really bothering me... but now i know, it is JEALOUSY
It ruined my mood a lot.
How'd
i came up with all of this? it's a long story... startin' when i just
feel so freaking sad when my friend left me to hang around together
(when basically hanging at the mall would just give me nothing but
burdened, and i often avoid that kind of activities). Things get
complicated, when i just feel so useless and left behind. I started to
feel frustated and my mood is just went off. And not forget to mention
about my relationship with this "guy". I feel like a jerk, A BIG JERK. i feel like i toy with him. And i know that it is not fair for him, but i still do it anyway.
Who knows? maybe this is somekind of karma? for treating him like that? for showing careless attitude towards my friend? i don't know.....
I JUST WANT TO STAY POSITIVE RIGHT NOW.
I know that satan is just giving me some hard time, making me hating my life each day. And you know what? i'm not letting them win.
There are so many other thing that is really important right now. I'm on my last year at highschool, I don't need any unimportant thing to do or feel about. I need to be focus on what i want to do.
My magic word is.....
Everything's gonna be alright.
and i still believe on it.
