Sunday, June 26, 2016

Old Friend, Drinking, and Things Like That.



Hello humans!

It’s a pretty damn time since I wrote again right?  yep, Its been so long indeed. I’m pretty sure my style of writing should be slightly changing by now, isn’t it? Anyway I feel glad to finally be able to be productive again.. here, in the cyber world :) (What an old pun?? why am I so old omg -_-)

SO... I’m 19 right now. YUP I’M THAT OLD. I’M ALMOST 20. And guess what am I doing with my life right now? I’ll be going to college this year!! Yep I’m super excited as to why I decided to be writing again . it’s been a really unproductive time of my life you know…  I’ll be 20 in the next 8 month, and I can’t really tell what I’ve been doing ( or producing ) this past years… I know it sounds pathetic, I know :(

BUT ANYWAY, here’s the recent issues that I’ve been dying to tell you guys…

And that is,

My old gang.




Okay not really a gang, but more of a close friends since junior high? They’re so close that it almost like a family. I repeat ALMOST… cause it certainly didn’t feel like that anymore hehe.

So here it is about my old gang, they’re surely have change. It is normal tho since we’re now (almost) adult. They are now working, drinking, having sex,  doing drugs(?), to put it simply, they’re an adult now. But the thing is.. does doing all of that makes you an adult? Or is it even important to be called an adult when what you’re doing is just basically the same old stupid things but now it is 10x more of the consequences than before?

I learned that to be an adult.. is to be mature, but also wise and open minded. It is not from what you wear, or what you drink/eat, or what you watch… its from what you choose! What you choose is what makes you an adult. Because, by choosing.. it means that you’re selecting the consequences that comes next… by choosing, you have to think about the pros and cons of it, what would brings you harm, and what would brings you any good. by choosing.. it means that you’re thinking…. That, you’re using your brain instead of just following the trend without knowing the impact that will happen to you.
 It is for me, what it called being an adult. 

I’m going to give a piece of my mind and my point of view of drinking. Because apparently we’re going to have a reunion and they’ve started to talk about this drinking stuffs. Well, they think they’re so cool drinking this drinking that, knowing this type of alcohol, blablablah.. honestly I didn’t know why its so cool tho (?) and no, I’m not being salty here, I’m just plain confuse..

 I mean like.. if there are people that look cool drinking, maybe because they are ALREADY cool from the very beginning, so that’s why when they’re drinking they could still look cool nonetheless. Now do you think you’re cool to begin with? ( aye sorry fam, gotta state the fact ), so if you’re just so so, and you drink… and you got tipsy.. and you act dumb, and most probably puke your soul out, is that cool to you?

I mean come on-_-, we (me&myfriendstho) live in a country of a tropical climates, people… Wakeup! Its not like we have winter here… we don’t need those things.


In the end… I’m not gonna judge them or anything. It is what you choose that makes you what you are. Your decision leads to the qonsequences that you as an “adult” have to accept. And by knowing that… well, could you give me a favour?? :) . Pls give me the benefits of drinking.. And I mean like not just one or two, but a list of benefit, cause I guarantee you that I could give the same or even more reason as to not to.


With love,


Dee.

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Life Qualities : An actual reminder for the future me.



"If you’re surrounded with great people, 
then great people you will be. "


That’s the thing that I just realized right now. I realized how it affects me so much.. no matter how smart and passionate you are… no matter how diligent you are, if you’re alone… you’ll be just good. not great. 

Why?

The best people, gave you the best push… they will motivated you whether it’s intentional or not. You won’t believe how fantastic your environment could influence you…. It’s either they would support you through the things you think you can never endure. Complementing you in order for you to be confident in what you do. Or, they will be your role model… the figure that you’re routing for. You will idolize them so hard, that makes you want to be like them… do the best in order to be just as great as them.

I might not know it back then. 

But now I know, And for the sake of my newest discovery… I would try my hardest to be able to fit in. I am no social butterfly. Neither am I an outcast. I don’t alienated myself from people… but I do hang with just several people. Mostly the people I comfortable to be with…. I don’t have bestfriend. As simply as I don’t believe in the word “bestfriend”. I hang with everybody…. But just some of them who I considered my actual friend.

My point is,

If you happened to be a person who’s just seeking for a better change in your life…. Then start with changing the group of people you hang with. I’m not telling you to leave your friends and search for the new one… I believe you’re not that dumb. But, if you want to escalate your transformation.. it will be really helpful if you’re accompanied with the best people. For the sake of you, and your life qualities.



With the best love,
 Dee

Friday, July 4, 2014

Everything's Gonna Be Alright (Apparently)

Hell-o folks!
long time no update....

Lately i've been feeling really wrong. Like everything around me is just so irritating. At first i don't know what's really bothering me... but now i know, it is   JEALOUSY

It ruined my mood a lot. 

How'd i came up with all of this? it's a long story... startin' when i just feel so freaking sad when my friend left me to hang around together (when basically hanging at the mall would just give me nothing but burdened, and i often avoid that kind of activities). Things get complicated, when i just feel so useless and left behind. I started to feel frustated and my mood is just went off. And not forget to mention about my relationship with this "guy". I feel like a jerk, A BIG JERK. i feel like i toy with him. And i know that it is not fair for him, but i still do it anyway.

Who knows? maybe this is somekind of karma? for treating him like that? for showing careless attitude towards my friend? i don't know.....

 
I JUST WANT TO STAY POSITIVE RIGHT NOW.

I know that satan is just giving me some hard time, making me hating my life each day. And you know what? i'm not letting them win.

There are so many other thing that is really important right now. I'm on my last year at highschool, I don't need any unimportant thing to do or feel about. I need to be focus on what i want to do.

My magic word is.....

Everything's gonna be alright. 

and i still believe on it.
 

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Please don't hurt him, don't hurt them...



I don't like it rite now... i hate it even ;(
Why should it happened this way??









I mean, why them? why now?
Just when they're exactly on the top, suddenly...the lawsuit...those rumours....
And the day could not get any worse, until i found this..


source : koreanherald.com

And this....



What the fuck is this??? i'm sorry i don't mean to be rude.. but SERIOUSLY, what is this guys?
Is it really necessary for him to leave?
Please.... we have lost Kris! Now, you want another more?
I seriously cannot find any logic of this....

At first, i didn't really care about those baekhyun-taeyeon thingy, because I KNOW that whether is it true or not... it's actually their right to date, and it COULD just be a distraction for kris's case... i could not lie and tell you that i didn't feel upset... Baekhyun is one of my top-3 bias, and i was so shocked to hear the news... but in the end, i love EXO as a WHOLE. I would not let my liking for them washed away just because of those things.

I feel uneasy for baekhyun rite now.... the look on his face now is so different with his look in the old times. His cheerfull, easygoing, and also bright chit-chatty personality is just... rarely showed. it's just like he was wearing a mask...
                   


I don't want to see him in pain.....
Eventhough i dont really accept his decision to let his relationship be known to public
(in which i know it would just harm their existence in any way possible)

Please don't hurt him with all those hateful words, you taught him enough lesson guys...
Because, it's not just one person who would get hurt... but also 10 others +1 galaxy would.

Don't ruin EXO just like what SM did.
As a fan, who just loved k-pop just because of EXO and EXO only, i'm begging you....
We Are One.




Thursday, June 19, 2014

Baekhyun-Taeyeon?? YOU'RE SM-ED



WELL,



IDGAF






Here's a little poem for sm,

roses are red
violets are blue
sm's are fuckin stupid for throwing this distraction news
 don't think we the fans would believe it, you fools!





oooo.... u mean
                           

                               THIS,

 want some rumour? i can give u hella one...



Friday, May 16, 2014

Wu Yi Fan Complex

it's been bothering me quite awhile right now. u guys must know it already, right?

KRIS VS SM

KRIS DEPARTURE FROM EXO


KRIS LEAVING SM

KRIS'S LAWSUIT AGAINST SM


NO MORE KRIS?


i can't believe a day like this could actually be happening. i never imagine that kris would do such an action. A BIG ONE, actually. i never know that it already pained him so much that he couldn't bear it anymore. all that i could think is when will they comeback? where will they perform next? what's the upcoming event? what news for today? but don't blame me. i just love them that much. i love them not knowing that my love kills them.

all that i could say right now is just i wish all of them for the best. i know for taking such an "ultra-gigantic action" like what kris did must be because he's just done. he's done with all the shit happens to him. humans have limit, and kris eventhough he's our galaxy man, still is a human.



i'm not gonna blame kris for his action. what he did is NOT A BETRAYAL. i believe that what he did is what's the best for him. he is the only person who knows the truth about himself. he is the only one who knows better about his condition. do u really gonna let him overwork his body until he can't take it anymore? do u really have to wait until he pass out, then you would say that leaving sm is the best for him? ( yes i would say leaving "sm" and not EXO, cause no matter what, kris is a part of EXO, even if in real life it is not, but in my heart it would always be like that) 

but honestly i kinda sad for the other members of EXO. they already work so hard. the intense practice was just sick. they're rarely sleep because of the busy schedule. and now "if" kris really is leaving, there must be some sort of changes in their whole performances right? well i do feel bad about that.

 


EXO are one. they will really miss him. especially EXO M. who's gonna be the leader now? just suho? well i dont think he can manage to do all of that alone. then who? lay? luhan? idk.

I OBVIOUSLY 100% won't believe all regarding rumours stating about members blaming kris. it's just a rumour, without a real fact. even some say that it is better to have a scandal member against member than the member against company. but in the end i do believe in my heroes that they wouldn't do such a thing.

 


 
ooh and by the way, do u remember this?        





yep, it was when EXO on sukira, looong time ago. that time sehun cried.
he said " exo... let's be one, let's be last till the end...."
well sehun, now it's my turn to cry T_T






 

SO, FOR MY DEAR LOVELY GALAXY

i'm not gonna judge you...
i'm gonna support you...
i'm not gonna hate you...
i'm gonna cheer for you...
i'm not gonna forget you...
i'm gonna keep remembering you...


I WILL ALWAYS AKNOWLEDGE THAT :

CHICKEN IS NOT YOUR STYLE

YOU WANNA GO TO THE GALAXY

YOU ARE A COOL IMAGE, BUT AN AWKWARD FREAK AT HEART

AND I KNOW THAT YOU ARE ONE. YOU ARE EXO.

[GIF] Kris’ wink @ Inkigayo 130602 

Always Love, for my one and only KRIS <3

We are ONE! EXO Saranghaja. - KRIS 



Friday, April 18, 2014

Perfect Guy Transformations


Okayyy, kayy i know i'm sorry for all those derpy faces i post earlier....
Well, now is the time for our lovely boys transformation..
Ketchingg...ketchingzz~